I recently watched an interview of Penn Jillette.  Penn is one half of the comedy/magic duo Penn & Teller, and is an outspoken atheist.  He told the story of how he went to youth group as a teenager and read one book that made him decide to be an atheist; it was not "the god delusion" or "god is not great", but rather the Bible itself.  He went on to say that anyone who is seriously considering atheism should read the Bible cover to cover and they will most assuredly come out an atheist.  How can this be?  How can somebody read the entire Bible and not believe in God?
     There was also an atheist man who was a reporter for the Chicago Tribune.  He saw a picture of a starving girl in a third world country and thought to himself "if there is a God, why would he allow this?  Surely there is no God."  He set out to do a full investigation to disprove God; reading many books, traveling the world looking for indicting evidence.  The more he investigated, the more he decided there was in fact a God.  This man, Lee Strobel, went on to become one of the leading apologists-defenders of the Christian faith- of our age.
     How can two people on opposite end of the spectrum search for the truth in the same manner and both end up flopping sides?  If you spend any amount of time in a social network you will find countless stories of people "deconverting"; denouncing their Christian faith for an agnostic (I don't know whether there is a God or not) or atheist stance.  However you will also find many people who were atheists for a long time and became Christians.  Atheists seem to believe that Christianity is for unintelligent people and that anyone with a superior intellect would not fall for such gibberish.  How then, do you describe Francis Collins?  Dr. Collins is the leader of the Human Genome Project.  He was described by the Endocrine society as "one of the most accomplished scientists of our time", and is a Christian.  As a matter of fact, Christopher Hitchens, one of the most outspoken atheists of our day, has reached out to Dr. Collins for help with his cancer.  It does not take mush time or effort to do an internet search for "famous Christian scientists" to see a long list of very intelligent influential scientists who were believers in Christ.
     Both Strobel and Jillette wanted to disprove Christianity.  Jillette succeeded, by hos own estimation, and strobel was forced by the mountain of evidence, to recant his atheism and accept Jesus Christ as the way, the truth, and the life.  And yet atheists have mounds of scientific evidence to prove that God does not exist, while Christians equally have mounds of scientific and historical evidence to prove that God does exist.  So we have an intellectual impasse, and that is where faith comes into the picture.    Do you believe that we exist because of millions of random occurrences, that we are merely biological creatures with no further meaning or purpose, or do you believe that there is more to this life, that there is a creator.  It all comes down to faith. Some things simply cannot be explained or understood.  This also hold true in science as there are many conundrums that science simply can not explain.
     I guess the point of this article is that intellect alone can not sustain a Christian faith; these point could be argued back and forth for all of eternity.You have to choose for yourself whether or not you will believe that God created the world you see around you and the universe that we see in our telescopes.  According to the New Living Translation of the Bible "Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see  (Hebrews 11:1).  Sure religion has caused all types of problems, wars, hatred, and all manner of evil.  I'm not talking about religion.  I believe religion is evil.  I'm talking about faith in Jesus Christ, and believe me there is a BIG difference.  In the end, you must choose what you will believe.  A forced faith is not true faith at all.  What do you believe?
 
     After three painful and arduous years of severe illness, pain, rejection, betrayal, confusion, searching, and uprooting our family, I had come to terms with the situation God had put me in; my wife had been healed and was recovering from cancer, and was given a teaching job at a Christian school almost 2,000 miles from home.  After an extended session of wrestling with God and dealing with past issues, I was back in youth ministry, albeit a volunteer position, until God told me otherwise.  I found a secular job with a meager salary, just barely enough money to pay the bills, trusting that God would provide.
     At first I was quite excited about my new job; not because of what I was actually doing, but WHEN I got to do it.  You see, I work the night shift; the OVERnight shift.  Third shift.  The "graveyard shift", 5 days a week.  I am a "night owl" by nature, regularly staying up well into the a.m. hours, only to curse the alarm clock and stumble around when it laughs at me at 7:30 a.m.  So when I found a job working from 11:00 p.m. until 7:00 a.m., I thought it would be perfect.  As I get home and go to bed, Lisa goes to work.  When she gets home, I get up and we spend the evening together.  She goes to bed I work to work, and the cycle continues.  Sounds great, but I have slammed into a few problems that are keeping me from attaining any normalcy in my sleep pattern.

Problem #1:  Sunday Morning Church
     Like most Evangelical Christians, I observe the Lord's day on Sunday....MORNING.  The obvious problem with this is that after having worked all night Saturday night/Sunday morning, my body is ready to go home and go to bed.  More often that not I spend my Sunday morning doing laps around the lobby of the church, listening to the sermon through the P.A. system because if I sat in that comfy pew I would be snoring in 5 minutes flat.  So I get home and get to bed around 1:00, bet up around 9:30.  That gives me time to shower make my lunch spend a few minutes with my wife, then back to work.

Problem #2: Days off
     Most people enjoy sleeping in at least a little bit on their days off.  They spend their time catching up on shopping, household chores, or various errands that need to be done.  For me, a day off is actually an overnight off.  It's hard to vacuum or do anything that makes noise in the middle of the night when everyone else is asleep.  it does not help that I live on a second floor apartment with sleeping neighbors directly below.  Most of the world is asleep during my "day off", especially in this sleepy midwest town.  I can't even go to the gym to work out, because...you guessed it... it is closed.  i have considered joining a 24 hour gym, but they are considerably more expensive that the good old YMCA.
     Because of this dilemma, I normally change my sleep pattern.  When I come home from work on the day before a day off, I don't go to sleep, but rather force myself to stay up until that night.  I usually get my two days off in succession, and they are quite frequently Saturday and Sunday, which means I can spend more time with my wife.  However, that means I get used to sleeping at night and being awake during the day.  So my first night back to work is always miserable because my body is ready for sleep, but I have a full night of work ahead of me.

Problem #3: day time activities
     Because most people sleep at night, they schedule their activities during the day.  I want to take part in those activities, I have to alter my sleep pattern yet again.  I meet with a local group of youth ministry workers once a month, usually around 10:00 in the morning.  By that time I am usually about 2.5 hours into my night of sleep, which means I either come home, take a 2 hour nap and go meet with the group, I stay up and meet with them, or I skip it altogether.  My church has VBS coming up soon and I will be the music director.  Our VBS meets in the late morning to the early afternoon, or as I call it, the middle of the night.  For that entire week my sleep pattern will be altered.  Then there are phone calls.  People often call me during the day when I an trying to sleep, without realizing that they are waking me up.  I could just turn my phone off, but I like to keep it on just in case my wife needs to call me, or in case of emergency.  By this time most people who would call me know that I sleep during the day and message me on Facebook, but there is always the errant wrong number.
   Our apartment is literally right next to the playground of the school at which my wife teaches.  There is only one small playground for all of the students to share, so each grade rotates recess time.  This means that almost all day long there are kids at recess; right outside my window.  Screaming.  Bouncing balls.  Arguing.  Crying.  Keeping me awake.

     If you have ever pulled an all nighter, you know how tired, cranky, and just overall miserable you get.  I usually pull at least two all nighters per week.  My sleep pattern is so erratic that sometimes I literally don't know if it's day or night.  My circadian rhythm is so out of whack that I am always fatigued and confused.  According to webmd.com, there is actually a circadian rhythm disorder called "shift work sleep disorder".  Wikipedia, speaking on sleep disruption disorders, says:
            Disruption to rhythms in the longer term is believed to have 
            significant adverse health consequences on peripheral organs 
            outside the brain, particularly in the development or                   
            exacerbation of cardiovascular disease. The suppression of
            melatonin production associated with the disruption of the
            circadian rhythm may increase the risk of developing cancer.

     Due to all of this, I am beginning to fear for my overall health.  During any given 8 hour shift, I consume a gallon of caffeinated beverage; usually one 2 liter of soda, and one 2 liter of green tea.  That's a lot of caffeine!  But I need it to stay awake; my job involves accounting, paperwork, balancing the books, and closing the business day for my company.  This involves significant attention to detail, concentration and mental alacrity. 
     At the very least, I need to get a regular sleep pattern.  But how?  In view of all of the problems aforementioned, how do I get a regular, steady "night" of sleep?  Any and all comments and suggested welcomed.